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i can die like this seriously.i didn't even step out from this house for almost two days.i feel like barfing up at the repeating sight of the house floors. '-.-
i am emotionally unstable at the moment.i can't believe i didn't get what was promised to me after pmr,freedom to do things that i have listed after pmr.

i'm in complete anger.pmr is already over for quite some time and i'm still here stuck in the house doing nothing apart from chores.
tv and pc? boring.

i feel just like my cats,given everything but freedom.
it's really hard to confront them when i am always,always feeling guilty towards them.
great.i feel like a total coward.

zzz i HATE this.
after a long blank stare at her computer screen,she starts to type.too many things in her head lately.wasn't having such a good day today.she is exhausted,very exhausted yet she still couldn't sleep.she just couldn't stop thinking and reminscing about everything today.

"what is happening to me? why does mind have to change so quickly?"

she couldn't stop thinking whether that this thing she did before was following her head or,heart. zzz "-.-

somehow,she's starting to regret her decision.oh,is she a fickle? sheesh,that's difficult.
well,one thing for sure this ain't going good.it just makes her more depressed.she doesn't know how she could even stand faking smiles for a quite some time,mmm long time.

blegh.she definitely hates this.

video killed the radiostar

PMR

i can't believe it's already over.just like that.
on the last day of pmr,it's not just happiness that i felt,i also felt sadness.
i'm suppose to be just happy,right? but no.

-.-

esh,i'm not gonna make this an emo-ish post.depressing kot.


tuesday;
on the last day of pmr,was suppose to lepak with friends,but then i'm suddenly not allowed.like,what the? -.-
so,that evening,the darlings airinamysino came over and hung out with me because they love me so much.haha :D
then syed joined us,amin was suppose to join but he was busy with his new buggy,yes i know.a buggy in sbg best?haha best kot.so then,we planned to watch some movies but unfortunately they already picked out their own choice of movie,so in the end,haha tak jadi.so,we went out and lepak-ed.had lots of laughs which eventually helped me put aside my frustration.cehhh 'laughter is the best medicine' :D


thursday;
had to go to school to give all the text books back.pinjaman so yeah,was so busy searching for science text book the night before.haha,i actually searched the whole house and called friends if they have extra science book.then,i had the urge to call airin.after some random talks,haha she suggested that i look under the bed.boy,she was right.

called her back,laughed and thanked her.i know at that moment,dia dah kembang.HAHA >:)
anyways,after returning the books,hung out with amy,lydia and shazuan.haha,we(except lydia) slept because we had nothing to do and was seriously bored.
during recess,hung out with the rest.ahh,pengawas tak boleh diharap.mentang-mentang dah habis pmr eheee 8D

went to bilik sal after recess.while on my way to bilik sal with amy and lydia,they decided to take the long way,i was forced to follow them "-.- .
met syai who was diligently doing his chemistry alone in the class,chatted with him a little bit and then made my way to bilik sal.there,watched amy competing with shazuan in chess.shazuan had slim chances of winning in the beginning,but in the end he won.haha amy was like "no way!"

then,it started to get all boring so i went to 3A and joined them.that is where the chaos,the joy,the non-stop laughter begins.HAHAHAHA
first we all ate this chocolate given by dila.her birthday gift.sedap kot,thanks and leviu dila.haha tetiba je :]
then started to take pictures and everything.the girls as usual with their own poses while the guys poses as gays,machos',poyos'.there were 200+ pictures overall.i think pn mazliana regrets attending school that day because everyone in the class were all nutcase.

ee dah lama tak dgr the word 'nutcase'.hahah

some students from different classes too like moi,joined them.it was funnehh.:D so,the activities for the f3 for the day were dating,playing inside games(permainan dalaman,HAHA) and taking pictures.ahh,the joy :]

in the evening airina,amy,sino,syed,amin,megat and i hung out again.haha we did something daring kot.jeng jeng jeng! :D cehh lebih lebih kot.full of laughter.sumpah sakit perut kot "-.- all because of amin's.haha :D


friday;
airin slept over my house the night before.that morning again me,airin,amy,sino,syed,amin and megat went jogging.haha berapa banyak kali nak jumpa en?

mum didn't go to work that day just because she didn't want to. "-.- so that afternoon,she took me and my sibs to macdees,for lunch.oh the sweetness and salty-ness of french fries and one ringgit sundae cone. :d

after lunch,went straight to airin's.was busy getting ready for yana's open house that evening.chatted a little and then went straight to yana's open house after amy came.
yana's were packed with friends,her relatives,and teachers.while sitting around there,was babysitting this cute little baby while the mum ate.he was jumping non-stop i tell you.then,i passed to syai,then yana,back to me,then after awhile,passed him back to syai then to other friends.haha,he went everywhere kot.haha that was funny.

then after a few munches and drinks,went to the park in front of yana's with airin,yana,khai,dila and her modek.took a few pictures and then just chatted while watching people happily playing soccer.
syed,amin and muhaimin arrived late in the evening.the boys joined us after that.syed and amin being gay and vain as usual.haha then airin's mum picked me and airin up bla bla bla,went back home.

so yeah i guess that's all.i know,everything seems boring right,but not to me.:D

-mek

p/s;leesa! sleepover jom :D
MEK IS BACK :D
HAPPY RAMADHAN,
HAPPY MERDEKA,
and HAPPY RAYA AIDILFITRI,
to all of you.
:]
-mek

away

salut! :)

wow,been a week since i last updated my blog.hmm,just got back from linggi today.somehow,it was quite boring since all i do there is watch tv and study.couldn't text anyone since the signal was 'blegh'.

anyways,this will be my last posts.(for real lah,heh.)
my imac will be confisticated.doi, "-.-
until PMR is over.aah,i hope my phone won't get confisticated too sheesh.

well,not much to tell here actually,this holiday has been really boring.doing the usual stuff every single day.pfft

oh yes,i would like thank adhiraa for posting about me.you're such a sweetheart.iloveyouiloveyou,ceh cehh cehh :D

okay,wish you luck to people out there who's taking PMR/SPM. :D

goodbye.
-mek

qila,mek,qeels,qiela,nik


i hope that these few people that i knew will get mental-ly better soon. :]

anyways,HAPPY RAMADHAN everyone and don't ponteng puasa ah? :D

sincerely,
-mek

do,something

puasa.

hmm,everything seems to be fast.as if we're all in fast-forward. "-.-
anyways,i am quite frustrated that i won't be able to fast on the first day of puasa.i was so like excited about fasting month then.DEY.


oh yeah,had an early merdeka celebration today.and,as usual took pictures with syai and leesa.the event was somehow kinda dull and gloomy.like,"what happened lah?".but i do like the form 5's performances.extremely funny. :]

that evening,staybacked at leesa's to teach her how to use her new macbook.
omigot
lawa gila macbook dia. :o

hmm,i guess that's all.i just don't have the mood to update anymore.here comes my mood swings.
i het yu pms.

-mek
i think i could drop dead with what's going on now.like seriously.

DEY

konnichiwa

hello.i won't be able to post anything for a few days starting today actually.but this post is gonna be a short one so yeah :D

a few days ago,students,teachers and lecturers from oita national technology college,japan came to my school.i've uploaded some pictures of it
here.their second day will be uploaded soon.





-mek