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i am so bored rite now...i have no idea what to do just now so i thought blogging might make those boredom go away..buuuttt..im still bored.myspace is soo getting boring.ive been getting really moody these days.im not enjoying the holidays actually.i rather be at skool with my friends.:)..

ok.fine,fine.holiday ni pun takde ah seteruk mane2 pun.im not enjoying it so much coz i can't go to colbie cailliat's and sunburst nanti.parents made plans going to kelantan.grr..i was quite pissed off coz dad said can go to both of the concerts.but then he said he forgot that he made plans with mum already.so..okaaayy fine,pegi kelantan to see my grandparents and all stuff and i am also happy going to see my grandparents nanti coz we haven't balik kelantan for like a year but knape tak pegi awal2 before the concert..haisho.sorry airin.guess anthr time lah.hmmm..*shudder*..okay.anthr thing yg i don't want the holidays to end because next week getting the results.im getting goosebumps man.i hope i will not get bad marks for the ujian this year.now,i am more worried bout my maths.

mmm..the sound of the rain pouring down smoothly.makes me want to do yoga.(wey qila sejak bile ko tau bt yoga hah?)(ow yeaa..i dunno how?imagine je aku bt yoga boleh ah)

okie..ignore those.my head is not working properly just now.okay.going to the camp thing next week.

how exciting.haven't been to camps for about a year.i just love camps and i dont know why.maybe coz cam penuh dgn adventure.u know,dpt meredah hutan,sleeping under stars(i hope).ey,best dowh.owh yea.with airin n amy going,i bet lgi best ah.i don't understand why some don't like going to camps?

why?

sebab takde air-cond?byk bugs?takut cepat kotor?tkut ade lipas?

(well i am disgusted with lipas,well maybe takut skit kot.ahahah)

okay no offence to people yg bce ni yg tak suke pegi camps.im just curious.oke?

oh,i just realized that i haven't talked bout my crush these days.it's like,i have forgotten him.and i am feeling happy.coz no more crying bout guys and stuff.no emo-emo ye.i love myself rite now for not falling on any guys.usually,i hate myself.LOL.oh,u must be wondering,why do i hate myself kan?

well,sorry there's no answer to that question.i also don't know.i am confused with my myself selalunye coz i kept saying to my friends that i love that guy over and over.but then,i realized that i don't love him more than bestfriend.i just love him as a bestfriend.probably just like him more than the other guy friends.he is a great friend.

Now,my heart only belongs to moi.no any other guys own it.guess i don't really love my current crush,i just like him.well..i think im just not ready to be in those kind of lovey dovey life like my friends.well i used to have a lovey dovey life but it only lasted for nine months.that really sucks u know.since i have nothing else to do rite now,im going to crite abt it.be prepared.HAHA.

okay,i had those lovey dovey life when i was in year six.UPSR year man.i met this guy during netball practice.he was doing the basketball practice.mase break from the practice.smua pegi lah lepak2 kat canteen to quench their thirsts.then that time i didn't even know that he was studying kat sksb.so then while i was just sitting around with em' friends,terpandang him.love at first sight.haha.heels over head.HAHAHAHAHA.then he saw and simply smiled at me.so i kinda smiled back.tersipu-sipu malu.ahahaha.(is that even the right word?)then,i told marina n nadhirah(my bestfriends that time n now marina is not) that i fallen on him n stuff..after that,i started to send him love letters..okay,i know.lame gile en?i had no choice but to send him letters coz i dont know his number n none of my friends have it.then after a few weeks,he figured out that it was me.so one night when i was otw back to my house.i got an sms frm an unknown number.then when we sms-ed for quite a long time jugak.then he bru revealed to me that its him.so,u knw how ppl are like when they are talking/mssging with the crushes.lol.then,after a long talk with him...we were together that day.i WAS happy lah. he treated me so nicely,my love fo' him kept growing n growing.then after 8 1/2 months he started to sho 'his belang'.makin lame,we were growing apart.a month before UPSR.i was so scared that i might not success coz at that time,i was really pissed off and can't focus on my studies properly.i kept on crying n crying every week(but not every day lah just kdg2 every week).mum was quite worried.so,she told me to leave him coz she thinks that im better off without that bastard.and she was rite.he actually was not serious in our relationship.he had torn my heart in million pieces.i did my revenge to him.that time he didn't know i knew it.so,that day.i kept on sms-ing with him.probably more than 100 smses that day.then the day when his phone bills came,he got scolded teribbly frm his mother.then he sms-ed me telling that he can never ms with me ever again coz his mum took his phone n probably will sell it.then I replied 'serve u right.padan muke ko.oh btw,aku dah tau ah.our relationship is OVER.i hope ur mum sells ur phone!bye syg!' then got abt a few misscalls frm him.after like a few days.my feelings fo him started to fade away.then,that UPSR day came.alhamdulillah,i can answer it easily.n then thank you allah.i got 5A's for UPSR.oh,that bastard got 5B's.i also found out that he's a mat kayuh.EEEEEE

well,thats all.im tired of typing nih.

DONE.